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Monday, 26 March 2012
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That feeling, that bonded both of us together; it got blown away.
"Did you have fun?"
"I wasn't sure."BOTTLED.
I've not been in my best condition for awhile now.
Things going wrong, feelings going wrong as well.
I guess I'm happy when you're happy.
Letting go.
I need to start doing that.WEEKEND.
Things have been pretty monotonous lately.
Classes, tests, assignments, projects.
over and over again.
& then I finally let loose because I was so stressed up for a period.
But somehow I guess it was a mistake.
I went a lil too far.
Did things a lil too deep.
I should have known better.JUDGY.
Do not like the way people are talking about me,
the way they're looking at me.
If only I could scream at them.♥ JiaYun.
mygod.
Monday, 06 February 2012
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So afraid to want more, to need more; because what we have now is near perfection.
"You'll miss me?"
"You have no idea."SLIPPED.
Sem break was good to me.
I did what I wanted to do, or more.
But I should have met up with more people though.
HAPPY CHINESE.
Chinese New Year was a blast!
Enjoyed myself to the fullest because
this might have been some of the very last ones
that I could still celebrate back home with
the people who matter the most.
Coincidently, today is the last day of this festival.
If only I am there, and not here.Without forgetting,
I turned 19 almost a month ago.
I still feel the same, I still am the same.
but I think I am older, but not wiser.
For the rest of this year,
I need to put my game face on,
work that much harder
& appreciate much more.
Hopefully, I'll get luckier this year.THE LINK.
I realized that all of us,
the childhood friends,
are bonded for life.
No matter where we are, who we are and what we are,
we will somehow come back together into a circle like before.
Sure, we might have changed along the way,
and drifted apart to our other circles,
but in the end, we could find our way back.
We forget that we don't belong together in real,
and somehow fit back as one again.
I know this, and by the look in their eyes,
I'm sure they know this as well.This makes me want to cry.
♥ JiaYun.
We could.
Saturday, 24 December 2011
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Make sure the doors are locked, the windows are closed; this can be our only secret.
"We'll do this together, alright?"
"We will."
SANTA, BABY.
It's Christmas now, baby.
We shall forgive and forget.
It makes you do things you don't do.
& you'll be able to get away with them.
I hope you enjoyed yourself.
HAPPY CHRISTMAS!♥ JiaYun.
Love, it messes you up.
Tuesday, 06 December 2011
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Maybe if I run away far enough from you, you will stop calling out for me.
"You look sick."
"I feel sick.
COLD.
Sitting alone at a cafe,
Streaming Gossip Girl,
Doing assignment,
Revising for finals,
people-watching.
I've not felt this calm for a short while now.
It's always been good for me to just lay back,
catch a breather & do some useless things,
before I go hardcore on myself.
I miss this solitariness.IT FLIES.
A week more to finals.
What am I still doing here?
Contradictory.PICK.
If you could go anywhere in the world,
where would you choose?
So many choices.Christmas is approaching,
the year is coming to an end.
This only calls for a detailed wishlist.
Taking some time everyday to create one.
It will be super long, I can assure you that.
♥ JiaYun.
one more time.
Monday, 14 November 2011
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Is this faith we're looking at, or is it something more atrocious?
"I'm only doing this for you guys."
"I know."OUT OF MIND.
For a month and a half, I forgot about the existence of this.
It never occurred to me that I have been missing this part
of my daily (somewhat) of my life.
A summary is ahead.
2 SEMESTERS.
Well, I'm super busy now with all my assignments and work.
All of them are piling up on my table, literally.
I don't have space to even put my bottle anymore.
Can't blame the fact that I do have a pretty small table though.
& my theater final performance is coming up soon in 2 weeks.
I don't know how I'm going to fit in all the rehearsals and practices
in between my schedule of work.
Without forgetting, I still need to study for my finals.
I can't afford to fail anything.
Hell, I can't even get anything below 80 marks.
Or I will have so much to pay for.However, in the midst of all this chaos,
I'm going off this weekend for a long awaited trip to Singapore.
I will be attending my cousin sister's wedding
& of course will be shopping!
Taking this time to clear my head too.
I starting to forget how to feel.
Might not be a bad thing though.GENTLE HEART.
Honestly, am I being nice or just being naive?
I can't stop helping.
Because I know how it feels like being helpless.
& I don't want anyone feeling that way.
I'm not smart though.
So stop calling me that.
I just know what I'm doing.
I'm turning 19 in less than 2 months.
I'm scared.
I want to stay 18 forever.
Can I?
I don't know how to move on from here.♥ JiaYun.
Kids.
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- Name: JiaYun
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 8/26/2007
